penyesalan yang amat!u make me down,down,down,down,down

yesterday i was kinda not in the mood of schooling for like 3 days straight from wednesday to friday . i donn noe why maybe just because it nearly holidays and the teachers wanted the books so far i managed to finish the work and pass it.and of course im being pushed by my peers in kawad,in koko,in class,in school everywhere i went/goes.totally no feeling when posting this blog.

and  icant forget when everyone took my things and dont put it back to its place and make me like WHAT THE SHIT.and i cant remember how with no manners i asked my peers at mamak's one ringgit just to buy maggie goreng that time i got 4 ringgit and miya gave me 1 ringgit.she said its the balance she still have after ordering JCO from zaty.she said"nie je yang aq ade.kaw beli la ape yg bole dimkn"something like that la.so i plan to buy rojak , but then i change my mind.as fast as i could i do what we called 'DERMA KILAT' and after im tired and exhausted because didnt get another one ringgit tbe-tbe nurfarhana aina gave me one ringgit.at that time iwent to mamak with miya,den and aina.leps brhmpas pulas minta2,dye dgn sedot sirap dye ckp :nah la naf,aq bgy kaw singgit.kesian aq tgk kaw."i was like grr , aq bsah keti kaw baru na bagi bai?haha yg si miya lagy best,da la ade singgit dlm poket gy mntak NASHA yg sah2 dari tadi soh si miya nie blanje(dlm poket dye pown ade singget jerk).pastu kecewe ngan mamat uh dye mntak den,ya allah ape punye mlg la aq an yg den lak ade singget gak.what so ever la doe.ath that time we ate first then change.and when im finished changing,igot scolded by my peers bfore kawad,im as usual sensitive i grab miya's hand and ran out of the place and go to 4dm to release my tears.what a shamed rite?im like a chegeng girl(this chengeng named by mamataka daus murad)daa puas nanges ttbe leh ktawe sbb kawad lak an ,gagagaga.that time kawad ngan f5 student they gave the command.most of them dont noe how to march but im the one don noe why they gave command?its like what happening here?did someone died?they were so much fuss,nag,blab and bullying others!not fair.all of f5 are not joining marching and just sat near the drain wacthing us got blacker than before!duh!

and then on friday,we rushing finishing our physics(me,of course finished),chemist,and composition.the homework need to be settle as me ,must collect all the books to send to teachers!it happen on the very friday morning.and after reciting al-quran,we have a good new that really ughh.we must record our talent for mk idol and emailed it to (try to remember the email)...now i got disturbance from others .go ayway!okey,come back,what im blabbering about?time pj,we don exercise much,teacher just asked us to run aroung the volleyball court 3 times.i don noe why,but i just run quitely.no sound made by me.then,teacher came with a form and names and weighting scale,i wasl like OMG!now i noe why we must run.i was like lets runaway as the scale getting near us.but some girls yg rendang afraid because the scale come with heigt measurement.and walllaah! my height is 163 cm and i weight 57kg.its okey what , im loving it. but this girl so caled isabel said im taller than u la naf.and then look at scale (im the one on counting the height)she just 151.5cm and 56kg.just one kg does not mean anything to me.just because ur shoes were thick does not mean u r heigher than me.and then my BMI is 21.5 and her 23.5 ouh,me,was like wah so kurus and tggi la sgt knnn???(sarcastic)and teacher gave us ideal weight based on heigth.some are obes and some not in ideal.im in ideal.isabel said so naf im lebih kurus dari u la kn?i was ,whats wrong with this kiddo,and her ideal weight does not fit her.see,whose laughing like rite now?ITS ME!
fter pj,its mth,we just doing some exercise and the teacher went out for meeting.nice.our class do their own part without making so much fuss and noise.good job.when bm.nothing happen.just an argument involving me,geet,raven,kreesan,nabil,emy,yy and 4PL.its about Mk idol.so much noises about suggestion of entertainment but so no hand wanted to volunteers.i guest 4pl may not joining this evnt as everyone want to present the most and easy one.and it continue until sivik time.we still arguing on the same topic although we were cleaning the class!i was really not in the mood and they were not helping!